I dreamed last night about all the people I've lost, who've left me, one after the other, and woke up thinking: I need to contact them. I reached out to them before to see about working things out, but I should do it again, now.
And I rolled over and started writing to one...and hit a roadblock, because I couldn't think of a reason that I should actually trust these people again. If someone is so cold and so cowardly, or just hates me so much, that they ditch me forever without a single word over some petty bullshit, why on earth should I want that person in my life?
Do your best to keep your friends — it's hard to make them as an adult — but if some spineless, deceitful worm leaves you, as much as it hurts, you're better off without them.
I've got my issues, for certain, but three things you can be sure of when dealing with me: I will never lie to you, I will never intentionally leave you in the dust, and I will never back down when you need me. To some people, these are negative traits, and this says a lot about them.
